Mu He

I’m a little frustrated with life right now. I’m not sure what to do about it.

I wish things were as peaceful and smooth as the clear night sky.

I’ve realized that the people that I’ve been hanging out/talking with, aren’t really people I want to be friends with after I transfer out. I take morals into great consideration when I shape my perspective on people. And just from the past few months, I have realized that some of these people and I have clearly different opinions on morals.

I do not tolerate taking advantages of people. No, it’s not okay at all. It’s never okay. This also includes stealing, cheating, and lying to benefit yourself because you are essentially taking advantages of their kindness. I’m so disappointed in myself to know that I forgave some people for these kinds of actions. But now, I’m absolutely disgusted to know that even some of the people who I considered one of my “closest friends” committed such inconsiderate acts.

I really don’t like crybabies. Ugh, please, don’t. Everyone has their own shit to deal with, don’t bring it to me because you think I’m carefree. If you’re gonna come crying to me about something, it better be something important because if it turns out to be something totally unreasonable, I will just point out how illogical you’re being and you probably don’t want to hear that from me. I just really hate crying.

I do not appreciate people with an ego. You’re the only one who thinks you’re so awesome. Shut the fuck up, save your reputation, and just accept the fact that you’re human. I swear, I can’t stand it when all someone talks about is themselves. This also includes people who break the flow of the conversation with some irrelevant fact about themselves. You’re not flattering yourself, you’re making yourself look like a DUMBASS.

Dependent people are one of the worst. Do I really have to explain? How do you expect to survive in real life if you can’t even handle the simplest of situations without an entourage of friends? If you keep asking for help on every little thing, they are gonna start disliking you and then you’ll have absolutely no one when you really need it.

Just because you’re like 1/16th of a race and don’t know jackshit about the culture, you look like a real dumbass to people who actually are of that culture when you refer to yourself as one of them and refer to the people as, “we”. People keep thinking that I’m only hanging out with the Koreans because I’m 1/4th Korean. Uh, no. A lot of them didn’t even know that I was part Korean for the longest time. I hang out with them because I like them as individuals, not because of their race and how “I feel connected to them through this relationship”. No. It’s not the ethnicity. It’s their personality. Don’t get me mixed with those people who are so shallow that they’ll base their judgments on race.

Agh, I really hate people sometimes! This is really one of those times.

I’m learning to be more honest to myself and voicing out things that I’m frustrated with. But a lot of the time, there’s just too many things I’m frustrated about.

I guess this is one of the reasons why I tend to hang out with people who are older than me. Immaturity is something I can’t deal with anymore. I’m too fucking fed up with dumbshits.