Facebook

31 08 2006

Why is Facebook SO confusing? :( Seriously, I try to navigate, but I keep getting lost. And I thought I hated MySpace.

I got a 9.5/10 on my Japanese quiz. :( What’s wrong with me? Arrrgh, that makes me mad.

Art is so boring, it’s so ridiculous, I hate still lifes… They are ironically lifeless.

I have no English class because Ms. Douglass is gonna be at the airport and hates subs and Mr. Martin doesn’t even check role and he’s a crazy old man. I wonder if I can skip school tomorrow… That’d be sweet.

But I probably do have to go to school. Damn. Which means I should’ve gone to bed 2 hours ago, but I didn’t because people make me very frustrated sometimes.

I don’t wanna go to school. And I don’t want to go to sleep because I’m too irritated.

I think I’m gaining weight. I need to seriously stop buying snacks from college. Alicia always says, “Let’s go get something to eat” even though I bring food from home because I’m not rich, but I can’t say no. So, we go to the store and she says, “I want ice cream” so she gets one and asks if I want one. But I don’t want her to pay, so I get one myself and she looks in the snacks aisle and buy something and looks and waits for me as if she’s expecting me to do the same and so I do it and arrrrgh. I don’t know if it’s my mom’s health freak-attitude that’s rubbing off on me, but I really am disgusted by junk food now. Next time, I’m just gonna tell Alicia that I’m trying to eliminate junk food from my meals.

I feel so gross. And I’m becoming broke. GODDAMNIT.

One good thing though: Yakitate Japan makes me laugh and Suwabara is now one of my top manga character heroes.





New Survey

29 08 2006

Woo, survey time. Man, I’m bored. I should go to sleep though.

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Moving On

27 08 2006

There are some people I haven’t been in touch with for a long time. So I look them up on MySpace or I check out their Livejournals or something. And it’s so weird because I read a little bit and it says something like they’re getting married, buying their own apartment/house, and etc. And some of these people are my age! Well… 18… Hm. I guess it really isn’t that crazy. But I just find that so funky. So young, don’t you think? Or am I just strange?

Future… Kinda freaks me out. I don’t really like to think about the future. Truthfully, after reading The Stranger, I find being an existentialist makes life a little easier. Cuz you’re not stressing and worrying over every details of the future. But it’s kinda fun to imagine. Like, I sometimes imagine interior designs of my future house. I’m gonna have a totally colorful and artistic house. Complimenting furnitures… Welcoming decorations… The works.

But being totally on my own will suck at first. Cuz money sucks. And instead of being the penny pincher that I was before, I’m spending a lot of money. :( Damnit, since when did I become a shopaholic?! I used to be able to save a lot of money when I was young…

Like today, I was planning to only buy Yakitate Japan vol. 8. I ended up buying Baby Love vol. 1-9 and Yakitate Japan vol. 8 and Weekly Shonen Jump. Fuck.

It makes me pissed how my DeviantArt has been less popular. No, I’m not trying to whore it around. I mean, I’m pissed about getting less views because I haven’t done any anime pieces recently. Am I really doomed with this anime artist label? Why can’t these people just appreciate art as a whole and not just one category? Or one media for that media. CGed pieces can be really beautiful. But man, it really disheartens me when I see that a mediocre CGed anime piece gets hundreds of favorites and thousands of views when a painting that I’ve been working on for long periods of time with lots of criticisms and suggestions, has only gotten 40 views. I love art and I’ll never stop doing art. But becoming a successful artist really does depend on the people who view it. So does this foreshadow a dead career?

Just as I was really starting to get the hang of semi-realism… :\ Man, I used to get so many comments and views. What happened?

Music: Jimmy Eat World - Sweetness (What happened to Jimmy Eat World too?)





Nihonmachi

26 08 2006

Woo! Going to Japantown today. :D I wanna buy more mangas, but I’m not in Japan anymore, so I can’t afford crazy amounts of mangas. D: Oh well, I just want Yakitate Japan vol. 8

And then me, Y, Annie, and Wendy are going to Melissa’s house to shoot pool and whatnot. XD Haha, Melissa’s house is awesome.

Yaaaakiiiitaaaaateeeee Jaaaaaapaaaaaaaan~





夕暮れ

25 08 2006

夕焼けに照らされて夕闇に包まれて
ゆらり風に揺られて流れて流されて

I don’t know if I prefer seeing the sunrise or the sunset.

Both are beautiful, but I’m rarely ever up for the sunrise.

Pointless post, yeah. I don’t know what prompted me to say mention this.

Music: Rip Slyme - Tasogare Surround





Day 2

23 08 2006

2nd day of Art and Japanese.

Eh, wasn’t too bad. I like Monday and Wednesdays.

Before art started, I stood in front of the art building, wondering if I should go into class yet or not. And a bunch of people from art class were sitting on the benches, smoking. I felt kinda awkward and was about to go in for class, but then this one girl was like, “Hey you, come over here.” I was so intimidated, I immediately went over to where she was sitting, but at a safe distance because she was smoking too. And she just asked me where I bought my plastic portfolio. I told her Aaron Brothers and explained to her that mine is a hand-me-down, which is why it’s in crap condition.

For Art, the teacher set up a bunch of branches for a still life and we were told to tape our 6B pencils at the end of this wooden rod that was about a foot long and then draw with our arms extended out, not bending the elbows. And since it’s supposed to be a contour drawing, you’re not supposed to lift your pencil off the paper. Everyone had a lot of difficulty. But thank god for Mrs. Warner’s 4 years of crazy teachings and AP Art, I aced it. :D I was so happy. The girl that asked me about my portfolio earlier was walking around and saw my drawing and said, “That’s really good.” ;_; I can’t tell you how thrilled I was when she complimented me. The teacher came up to me and said, “Wow… I think I’m gonna have to give you a 6-foot pole to tape your pencil to. I need to give you a challenge…” XDD I was like, “@_@ Oh god, please no…” Then we drew the same still life, but in any way we wanted to. With any pencil, no wooden rod, erasing is okay, etc. And though it was easier, I like my contour version a lot more… More interesting. The other one is so boring.

I talked to Alicia and ate “dinner” with her for about an hour. Then I walked her to math class. We had some trouble finding it and ended up passing it twice. XD Then I was walking back to the cafeteria and then I saw Melissa! :D Yay friends. I walked her to her Biology Lab class and then walked towards the cafeteria again. The people sitting in front of the Science Center must’ve been like, “Wtf, why does that girl keep walking back and forth…?” And it was rather shitty because I had to lug my art portfolio and art supplies around. :( I wish there was a locked closet where we can keep them, but there isn’t…

So I sat around in front of the student services center since it was still nice out and Japanese didn’t start for another 40 minutes. It was peaceful.

Japanese class was really boring because it’s way too easy. I kinda made a friend. A lady named Christine. She noticed I speak very good Japanese, so she talked to me and stuff and asked if she could have my number so that I could help her with Japanese. :) I sat at the edge of the class so I could set my portfolio against the wall and then all of a sudden, this Chinese dude came and sat next to me. I was wondering why, cuz he was sitting at the other side of the room with some guys he knew. It’s kinda split. The guys sit on the left, the girls sit on the right. I guess he wanted some Japanese help and sat next to me? But he never asked me a question and he kinda smelled too… I hope he doesn’t sit next to me again… -_-; Class is just ridiculous. Just so easy. I thought it’d be easy credits and awesome, but it’s annoying… Oh well, it’s 5 units, I’ll tough it out…

I’m sleepy and kinda hungry. :( Bah. Tomorrow, I gotta get to school at 8. I should go to bed soon. And hopefully, I did the English homework which was to read some pages. Alicia made me panic today by saying there was a workbook, but turns out she accidently bought a workbook for a different class/teacher.

Psychology is gonna suck this year.

Music: Rip Slyme - Time to Go





Bad Experience

22 08 2006

I dislike COM already. I feel so isolated. I bet there are people there that I could get along with, but they’re mostly older than me. And I hate introducing myself to new people, especially if they’re older. I’m so intimidated and scared in almost all of my classes except art and psychology. Art, because that is my forte. Psychology, because Danielle is in my class. I’m very scared in English class and I don’t think I’ll enjoy Japanese that much because my Japanese is higher than 203 level, but I’m stuck in 102. Sure, it’ll be easy, but I’m just afraid that someone’s gonna get the wrong impression of me, as if I think I’m so pro and genius at Japanese.

It’s only been the first day of classes and I am already determined as hell to get those transferrable units and getting OUT of there as quick as I can.

COM isn’t really that different from high school, in terms of atmosphere and structure. But god, this experience would be so much easier and better if I knew people there. The unfamiliar environment is what’s getting to me. My god, high school wasn’t great, but I want to go back.

The other day, I had something stuck in my throat, so I tried gargling and coughing it out. After coughing a couple times, I started coughing up blood. I thought it was maybe some red fruit juice or something, but no, it was blood. It wasn’t an alarming amount of blood or anything, but it really freaked me out.

And don’t you just hate it when you know you’re losing to someone/something that just isn’t even on the same level of comparison?

Failure. Seriously.





College.

18 08 2006

College.

Need I say more?

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Books are costing me more than $150 and I’m only taking 3 classes that requires books! Goddamnit. And I still need to buy materials and arrrrgh. How costly.

I need a frikkin job, but that lady at the printing/copy store isn’t frikkin answering her phone! @_@

But you know what? Hiruma is so cool.





BEWARE

17 08 2006

Warning: I am gonna rant, so if you don’t care, don’t read. By the way, I use “you” a lot, but I mean “you” as in the people who have the opposite views as I am expressing. Not specifically, you, the one reading this.
Topic: Love/Hate America

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Tochuu

16 08 2006

I’m bored.

Nico, you read my blog now? Weird.

Surveys waste time.

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